Twisted!!!

Well the name for the day suits it well... i still cant figure out whether i spent my day happily or otherwise.. thats how complicated things are starting to take shape.... Basically did the things required for getting loan... so now got to wait for it to get sanctioned.. apart from that didnt do much... just whiled away time.. apart from that the usual feelings of feeling lonely.. angry.. mad... sad.... wat else.... Getting bored basically... want to break free... freak out... but wat are the options i am having for doing them.... how to get selective amnesia...??? but do i really want to forget all the things that have happened.??? its something real beautiful.. how can i ever let go of it.. but if i am not letting go of it.. then how will i ever continue to live with it.... Mannnnnnnnnnn this is so so screwed up..............