End of 2011

Ya.. I know i have not kept up my word of proper blogging.. but doing MS as i found out is no walk in the park.. With a lot of heart break and ache came to Atlanta to start of afresh... and things really started to brighten up... new sets of friends... different experience in living away from parents.. and its almost the end of 2011 and almost 5 months have passed since i came out of chennai... things have changed.. things have happened.. but ending 2011 single again... but i am happy about it... for i have still not moved on!!! 

Life moving on.... On to a path with an unknown destination

Its been three days since i last wrote the blog... well i would say one of those days was an amazing day... a day i would remember for a long time to come for sure...Its like time just passes by so fast when you are with someone whom you want to spend time with.. so fast that.. for one min it is showing 7.15.. and the next time when we see it, it shows 8.45.... it was a day that i never wanted to end.... Jul 20... Will ever be etched in my memories....

Twisted!!!

Well the name for the day suits it well... i still cant figure out whether i spent my day happily or otherwise.. thats how complicated things are starting to take shape.... Basically did the things required for getting loan... so now got to wait for it to get sanctioned.. apart from that didnt do much... just whiled away time.. apart from that the usual feelings of feeling lonely.. angry.. mad... sad.... wat else.... Getting bored basically... want to break free... freak out... but wat are the options i am having for doing them.... how to get selective amnesia...??? but do i really want to forget all the things that have happened.??? its something real beautiful.. how can i ever let go of it.. but if i am not letting go of it.. then how will i ever continue to live with it.... Mannnnnnnnnnn this is so so screwed up..............

Weekend spent at a resort

Last Saturday and Sunday went to a resort named ocean spray for one of my dads family meets.. was one hell of a place. excellent ambiance... great food... nice scenery all around... If you have the money.. then definitely its a place to spend time at... But because of the things happening on my side.. was not able to fully get into all the activities... spent a lot of time thinking... I have been put in a very strange situation.. being hated by people that you like is something very common and happens a lot of times in all peoples life... but being loved by the person you love but at the same time you have to move away from that person just to make sure that person has a happy life ahead.. well thats a situation that doesnt arise in everyones life.. and i seriously dont want anyone to experience it also... its one hell of a shit hole to be in... you will be overwhelmed by both happiness and moroseness.. Happy for being loved... morose for the simple fact that.. for your love to be really truthful.. you need to sacrifice the love and not only that... go totally out of touch... almost become invisible so that the gal whom you thought was the one made for you can lead a perfect life... it stinks does it not... well... its true.. and i have to do it.. its no use to love someone and spoil their life.. instead you can just love them and make them happy by going away from them.... Yenna kodumma sir idhu.... :(

A day to forget indeed!!!

God is so meannnnn.... he just cant keep things as they are.. he just likes to keep messing it up for me... The pain and tortures that one has to feel in a life time... its just excruciating and intense... it almost makes you feel as if your heart is being ripped into pieces my a butchers knife... The things that you have to witness in the day to day life... Ya i completely accept.. even when typing this blog there will be so many more people who have much bigger worries and pain that they cant handle... but i am no mahatma.. yea i do feel bad when i see a handicapped person working his heart out just to sustain for another day.. but when its something personal.. mind just closes up... it fails to see any logic in the things that you do!! it just continuously keeps thinking about the problems and fails to see the bigger picture... To have seen all the things that are happening all around the world.. i will seriously be one of the happiest persons if the world does come to an end by 2012... Hopefully i will not have to see much more painful things than what i am experiencing during this part of my life... I should not be saying this aloud but... Well never mind... its not safe to blog too much when you are depressed... a lesson learnt from the life of mark zuckerberg.... may be some other time.. when there is atleast a couple of followers to listen to all the crap i am blogging... at that point of time will tell the things that no guy must ever do if he doesnt want to end up getting hurt and defeated and feel like a total dumass in  front of the entire friends circle.. who take a look at you and think.. man he must have been such a looser to have screwed it up so badly.....

It was a wonderful day!! :)

Well things where much more interesting today.. got to spend time outside with people that i like a lot...  Thanks for the company... :D :D hope the feeling is mutual.... :P Got myself a new shades for taking to US.. Many may think that whatever i do its not going to change how i look.. lol... Its true.. but atleast i can try to change it rite!! Well apart from that did a little shopping and then went to McD for a small lunch... then went for some more shopping and returned back home after 5 hours... had a lot explaining to do in home as i didnt actually tell where i was going.. :D Well thats it as of now... if anything more interesting happens will post it then... Toodles.. :)

Just another day!!!!

Well its almost the end of the day and nothing big has been done today to be talked about.. Just the monotonous works that i have been performing for the past few days.. getting things ready for US.. But to tell you all the truth.. its much easier to get admission to a US university than to pack all your things and go and get settled there!!! :P Still no plans for tomorrow other than a dentist appointment.. Still got time but.. let me see whether i can make something out of it.... Cheers!!!

Its just the beginning!!!

Well it has all ways been a strange thing these blogs... many a times i have started but never continued.. but this time i am pretty sure that i will!!! In 25 days.. going to take a huge leap towards my future going to leave the place i have been living for the past 21 years and step foot in the land of opportunities.. Yes you are rite in US.. going to do my masters.. well i am not such a big brainy fellow.. there is a huge story involved in almost all my achievements and all decisions as time passes by through the journey when it is the right time.. will give you the necessary insights into my past.... Hang on folks.. Its going to be a real roller coaster..... ;)